Serenity from Frustration

So yesterday was a really crappy day work-wise. Everything was a fire drill. One job in particular was totally fucked up. I was working on a file from my desktop (standard working procedure) and was told at the eleventh hour that the file I should be working from is online where everyone was working on it in real time. So most of my day's work was for naught. Had I been told that from the beginning a lot of stress and frustration could have been avoided. It was a classic case of miscommunication and no communication at all boogering everything up. I was frustrated, my boss was frustrated, and the mood was basically gloomy because of all this. 

I tell this story for background to something else. Lying in bed this morning I said to myself, "Yesterday is a memory now. Nothing about it is tangible. It can't reach out from the calendar and grab me and pull me back." Then I wondered, "Back from what? Back into what?" It was then I understood my aloud thinking. I had moved beyond letting something in past affect my here and now. It's a new day and what is past is past. It can't influence my mood, if I don't allow it to. I learned a great deal from yesterday about how to more effectively handle similar situations in the future. And that's the only thing from that mess of a day and project I need to carry with me.

It was a great feeling and one of those you feel the serenity and confidence of in your bones. It helps me stay present and in the moment. Right where I should be. Not looking over my shoulder at the past, and not anxious about a future that hasn't happened yet. 

New Age Music and the Cosmic Sparrows

I was sitting in my car this morning waiting for the gym to open and listening to a Sirius station called “Spa.” It’s all New Age music and I find it very relaxing and mentally calming. As one song was playing this flock of sparrows flew right toward the windshield and split off almost in time to the music’s crescendo.

It was one of those “larger cosmic” moments that would slip right by a person if they weren't aware enough to pay attention to such things. 

Crossroads

There comes a point in every adult's life where he knows he's at a crossroads. He can continue on the same path, but that will only yield the same results. Or he can take the path he knows is a better one, and enjoy new and different results. I came to that crossroad last night and this morning. I know absolutely the path I want and need to be on. Turning away from the other is so much easier when one is self-aware enough to have perspective. 

The Incredible Benefits of Not Belonging

Through my friend Dan I've discovered 20-something Japanese minimalist Sena Shimotsuma. He has a unique perspective on life that resonates deeply with me. Check out his latest video above and be sure to explore some of his others. His insight is deep and his reasoning is sound. Enjoy!

The Age of Contentment

Last night I had a quiet evening at home. I had a 10mg Sour Strawberry Sativa gummie and two Old Fashioneds. My Frenchie Rufus was lying next to me on the sofa, and I watched several episodes of 30 Rock and listened to some jazz. It was the perfect evening. I didn't need to pile anything else on in the mentality of "more will make it more fun." No going out to a bar, hunting online for sex, or being around loud people. It was just me in my space doing my thing. 

Describing last night to a friend I told him I've reached the "Age of Contentment" where my "enough" if truly enough. It feels good to be aware enough to recognize being in that space, and knowing enough to know to appreciate it.