I decided at the end of last semester not to pursue my nursing degree any further. After careful and thorough consideration I knew this was the right decision for me. It initially (and still) feels like the absolute right decision. That “gut” place tells me so. And as my dad always says, “Your gut instincts are always right.”
Now that the dust is settling and I'm returning to a more free schedule I find there is a hole now. Where there was once school and clinicals and homework, there is now nothing there. My “purpose” is gone. I was lying on the sofa yesterday feeling empty and down and couldn't figure out why. That's when I realized the sense of purpose was gone. This morning I realized that can be seen as a negative thing. Or it can be seen as a totally positive thing. I now have the time to pursue interests and curiosities I never had (made?) the time for before. So while right now it may seem like I'm rudderless, I'm actually in complete control of the direction the ship sails. And that direction can be any I choose.
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